Work Doldrums

Well, I am trying to keep my promise to write more this year and here I am again...I am sure many of you feel when does the work day end and when can I go home and soak my self in calgon to get me away from it all... typicallly I don't feel this way. I have learned to handle the stress of my job creatively and productively...I come home kiss my husband and sit down and relax to a good home cook meal..maybe accompanied by a glass of wine,...then prop my feet up and do some mindless reading or knitting in the winter or gardening in the summer...for the most part I look forward to work..but this week was not so...first of all I am really hating winter...Southeast PA has had its share of weekly snow or ice storms; secondly (as I mentioned before) running solo at work without help on these snow days hasn't helped my morale...then I was sick last weekend into the beginning of the week...I hate being sick... no kidding...my job is taking care of sick people all day...why do I want to feel the way they do...not...so I was really feeling low and under...to the point I told my husband ...not sure how much longer I can do this....so, I thought, what are my options...Well I can retire in 3 more years...but I still have to work...and if I still have to work what would I do...I know nothing but health care. If I retire and have to work...I want nothing to do with health care...and if I work I want to work part time like 2-3 days a week from 10am to 2pm....I did toss around going for my certification in laser hair removal...but do I really want to go back to school again and learn something else...not...do I sound like I am winning because I am....What other options do I have....well when I came to this point ..the weather finally turned around and we had a 60 degree day and a 70 degree day...all of a sudden I wasn't thinking of options anymore but back to lovin my work...there is one thing I have learned when I do get down and out at work not to take it out on my patients or their families...this does take a lot of patience and indurance...I want the best for my patients and I don't want them into my mind where they feel they are making me this way....after 12 + years of being an NP this has taking sometime and self training to do...so come on warm weather...I nee a healthty dose of Vit d to help my happy thoughts to keep me in the work mode for a longtime...at least another 6 years!!!