Winter Coldness andLoses

Well, we are certainly in the midst of weather in southwest Pennsylvania. Thankfully, Phil predicted an early spring. My winter has been very busy at work. Not because the weather has been bad or the flu season is here. I have been working solo on the worst snow days... My co worker has decided not to come in on snow day because of the distance to work which leaves me holding the fort....Actually it has been ok....thankfully I enjoy my work...despite the busy unit I work on I have found solitude and enjoyment in my patient load. I do have one patient I would like to share of my experience during these months. He was a very challenging patient when he first came to me in September. He literally damaged his mind and body from cocaine. He drained all of his finances and laid in his bed agitated confused and angered. He required 1:1 nursing 24 hours for almost 2 months. Psychiatry saw his patient everyday..The nurses did not fear this man but worked hard to bring him to the point that he would recognize us and cooperate with us. He learned to communicate effectively. Sometimes with choice words and foul language ...but by the time Christmas came around he would wheel himself in his wheelchair and sing Christmas songs with the visiting musicians. He was more social and would even have an attention span long enough to play tic tac toe with one of our nurses....We grew very fond of him but his time was growing short with us and was medically stable to move to a longterm care unit.... that day came he we said our good byes...I knew deep down inside he would soon return....for one thing that I have learned in my years as a nurse and nurse practitioner ...this type of patient can easily become sick and not get better....one month after we transferred him he returned...sick and more demented...I knew as much as I tried to help him he would never be the way I remembered him singing the Christmas songs...I worked closely with his family and many discussion occurred and the family decided to make him hospice...he died within a week of going to hospice unit...Although I was sad to hear this, I knew he lived his last months in a sheltered environment, comforted, in no pain, and around people and family that loved him and cared for him...His family and children are beautiful people and have grown up to love him very much...I did tell him that before he went to hospice..he looked at me and I knew he appreciated me telling him this. The day he died his family came to thank me for all I did.....I was only doing my job and I knew if this was my loved one, I would want the same thing for them that I gave to this patient.